Feel

When I wake up
and realize your not there
I smell your perfume on the pillow
Wish you were here

You have given me everything
I could ask for
In such a short time
I could not ask for more

Chorus:
I wish I could feel
The warmth of your touch
I wish I could look
In those angelic eyes
Get lost in your beauty
I will do whatever I can
To stay with you
End Chorus:

This pheromone trance
of love and honesty
If I only had the chance
to taste exctasy

to be the one you love
you look like an angel
sent from heaven above
this love is like a fable

Chorus

Two-faced

She seems like an angel above
One that shows much love
She will do anything for you
Your life she will consume

She will seem like no one else
I don't want anyone else
She will take your heart
and rip it competely apart

She isn't a sinner or a saint
Her beauty will captivate
Everyone's prying eye
But no one will realize

She is everything to me
She is so hypnotic
Her pheromone trance
Will take your life

Chours:
It's hard to say what got my attention
I couldn't escape with any diversion
This slave that I've become
I've become her possesion
My life drains faster
I am a puppet to the master
I will win
I will take back my life!
End Chours:

She will no longer take
I know she's a fake
She is a queen
A queen of the damned

Her heart is black as night
She will steal your soul and your life
I can't I fell
For this beast from hell

I see through your lies
Behind those cold blue eyes
There will be no more deceit
You will taste defeat

This life that you've decayed
I've been battered and frayed
The sufferrings will end
My freedom will now begin

Chours:

She isn't real! She will never be real!
Look in the mirror and see who you really are
The reflections of two faces
Demon and Saint
One will leave without a trace

Choke

I wish I died
instead of lived
This life
I cannot bear
This shell of man
Brought to death
By his own hand
Choking for his final breath

Feeling lost in my creation
Not knowing when it will fade
This mask hides my face
While it seals my fate
Masochism is my friend
Whatching the blood run red
Waiting for an end
To this wasted life

Chorus:
You cannot help
The mindset is made
While the body turns peach to grey
Watching the life fade
Life is so hard to live
But so easy to end
This life you don't know
This life that I....choke
End Chours:

This isn't real
You can't understand how I feel
This life that I foresake
This life that I will take
The darkness surronds the light
Grim has come for a life
Sadism can't bring pleasure
To this empty shell

Chorus

I will choke on all this shit I can't take
This life, like that i foresake.

Drunk Again

It's party time!
Head out and get the beer
Get the girls drunk
Then stick in their rear

Tonight is going to be a blast
We're all getting drunk
Don't know how long the party will last
But at least we're probably getting fucked

Chorus:
one beer two beers three beers four!
Watch those panties hit the floor
Getting wasted without a care
Remeber don't cum in her hair
This is a night for partying
And the people keep on coming
Pass the shot glasses
We're getting drunk off our asses
End Chours

Not sure what's going on
But we know were having fun
Everyone is taking jello shots
We know we won't get caught

People are playing kings
and circle of death
Ready for the beer bong?
Take a deep breath

The beer flows like a waterfall
If you have to piss
just stumble through the hall
Watch out for the fat girl wanting a kiss

As the night goes on
People start to pass out
praying to the porclein God
We're drunk without a doubt

Chours

The morning sun rises
It's hard to open our eyes
But when we do we realize
The fat girl by our side

So sneak out without a peep
Or she will make you wish you were dead
With breakfast at Denny's at five
you can't agrue it was such a great night

Chours

Let's all get drunk and screw!

My girl's mom

From the first day we meet
I pictured you naked and wet
These feelings are wrong
I knew the temptation was strong

You may be older
But you could be my teacher
I'll go oh so deep
While my girlfriend is asleep

Chorus:
This is so wrong
But it feels so right
I just want to fuck you
Each and every night
You may be older
But that's ok
Even though I'm dating another
I just want you
my girlfriends mother!
End Chorus

My girl think I'm there to see her
But it's you I'm after
The older the berry the sweeter the juice
I'm about to make that berry loose

Some might think it's odd
But there not the one getting the blowjob
You got the experience to please
And I'll get in that vertical smile with ease

Reaper

I am the unforgivening son
Blending into the night
I am the one
I will end your life

I come from fire and flame
Striking down man
You all are to blame
Your death is in my hands

Chorus:
Dressed in black
Moving through the night
As the whip cracks
It's the end of your life
You cannot stop me
For I am immortal
You will suffer before me
For causing as the turmoil
Man will see his end
For I am the Reaper
Let the reaping begin!
End Chours:

As I pierce the heart
creating bloody wounds
This will be the start
The end is soon

You will pay
For all your lies
There is no other way
Prepare to die

Chorus:

Killah

so much drama in my mind that i cant see
i feel like solving these problems like a G
no i'm not gangsta and i try not to be be
but see messages to my brain driving me to be something that i want to be
a cold blooded killah nothing realla stabb you up until your body shivvas . bloody messes all around me
i'm going on a rampage killin whatevers insite step to me and you'll see a true fight
hood rich? nah hood insane hit you blows making you feel it through you membrane what mane?
had enough of this i'm about to snap hit you back not with words but with gat 9 of mine and its about time i react to all this drama going through my mind

By: Shawn Goodwin

Mortal Suffering

Dressed in black
Coming in the night
don't look back
it will end your life

We will ride
To end your pain
Marching in stride
Your life will fade

Chorus:
Marching in step
Leaving nothing left
Screaming words of pain
Your life will fade
We will bring you death
We will take your last breath
There is no more wondering
This is the end
The end of your...MORTAL SUFFERING!
End Chorus:

There is no mercy
There is no time to beg
Your life of heresy
Will leave you dead

You live in sin
Never knowing
You life will end
Our anger is growing

Chorus:

Our words are true
You will see
There are very few
Who see me!

We are the horsemen
That will not stop
There is no end
Tell sin is gone

Chorus:

YOU WILL FEEL THE WRATH! YOU WILL FEEL THE ANGER! WE WILL PUT AN END! TO YOUR MORTAL SUFFERING!!

No Tomorrow

In the night I wake
Crying myself sick
Having a life I forsake
Knowing there's nothing left

My head in my hands
I cannot speak
I cannot stand
My body has become weak

Chours
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
I want to hide my head
Just to escape
I want to drown my sorrow
While my tears enter the glass
Wishing no tomorrow
This can't last
End Chours

I stare at the moonlight
Trying to analysis
This terrible life
That I can't realize

My bed becomes cold
For I have no rest
I cannot find peace
There's nothing left

Chours

Smoke enters my lungs
I search for an escape
While my head is hung
This life I cannot take

I search for death
While smoke fades
Praying it's my last breath
This is the last day

Chours

I feel such sorrow
I just want there to be...
No Tomorrow (X 5)

Pain

The skin splits open
Blood flows over the skin
I cannot escape
Please God! When will it end?

I feel the warmth drip
I hope I don't want to die
But I have no other way
To feel alive

Chours:
This pain is endless
It cosumes my soul
I can't feel
Except my wrist grow cold
What do you do?
When the pain will never cease
I can't take it
I just want peace
When pain is constant
The body becomes empty
I'd do anything
To know I can still feel
I just want
want to know I'm real
End Chours

The razor blade gleams
There is nothing to say
As my body is warm
Then cold and gray

The world is numb
The feelings are gone
Why is this happening
What the fuck is going on?

Why can't we feel
Why do we sit by
Searching for happiness
That never seems real

We always search
We never realize
This bullshit
Won't make us alive

Chours

Why can't we stop
To be real
To know that love
Is something we can feel

The pain of life
Is a fucking enemy
Down the path of strife
That I cannot survive

Chours

God please let this end
Lead me to peace
In Jesus' name I pary
Amen

Dream

The imagery is clear
Yet fades to black
It seems amazing
Yet its so bleak

It's to good to be true
Yet I embrace this love
All that I go through
Is for nothing

Chours:
It's so surreal
The feelings I get
I should not feel
Yet I find it kind of funny
But I also find it sad
My dream of dieing
Are the best I've had
I don't want to wake
From this sleep
I lay here just pray
This is the last night
That I am alive
End Chours

Dreams of my body cold
My soul becomes frayed
My mind becomes old
The world goes blue to gray

This endless sleep
Brings so much peace
I just want to keep
Let my soul cease

Chours

Numb

People look around
All the see are faces
Same old faces
Same old places

No one stops
To look past
The expressions
The average expressions

Chours
I look around and all I see
Is this world
Where nothing seems to be
Everyone runs in circles
Ingoring their actions
Ingoring the expressions
This world has become
A world of false lies
The world has become
Oh so numb
End Chours

I don't know what to say
As the blank faces
Pass by everyday
Turning the world cold and gray

The stiffness succombs me
I cannot speak
I cannot breath
I've become what I did not want to be

NUMB

Chours

Shell

You hide yourself
You build your walls
You say you love me
You no nothing at all

This is the last time
I won't do it again
This is the last time
There nothing left but the end

Chorus:
I'm a shell of man
Who once existed
But no one knows me
Or my frustration
I'm more then just
The looks on my face
All I want
Is a little peace
YOu will not see me
For who I am
So now I've become
A shell of a man
End Chours

You lie to me
Make me believe
That you reall love me
All you do is decieve

I will not take this
There is nothing left
I will not stand
My body is laid to rest

Chours:
I'm a shell of a man
Who once existed
But no one knows me
Or my frustration
I'm more then just
The looks on my face
All I want
Is a little peace
YOu will not see me
For who I am
So now I've become
A shell of a man
End Chours

I'm a shell of man
No one will understand
That all I've become
Is a shell of a man

Bleak

The world is bleak
I cannot see
I wish could only stand on my feet
Can someone please help me?

I look around only to find
That I'm the only one
At the end of line
Can someone please help me?

Chorus:
I would smile
But I'm to weak
I would say words
If I could speak
Because the world hurts
It's way to bleak
I just wish I could
Stand on my own two feet
End Chours:

I try to walk
But I fall
I wish I could talk
Yet I can only crawl

I walk this line
My vital signs
Tell me I'm alive
Yet I keep crying

(Chorus)

I open myself up
My heart is cold
I don't know how to cope
The dull pain is so old

The world is bleak
Everything seems to fade
I wish could only speak
While my world turns gray

Chorus X2

Broke

Looking at myself
I realize that I've done wrong
My failed words
Stay behind my lips
I don't know what to say
This pain I feel day after day

Chorus:
What I really wanted say
Is that I'm sorry
For what I never said
I never wanted you to see
The evil side of me
I tried to hide it from you
Yet it comes back all to true
I'm sorry for what I've become
Never wanting to be
Something that wasn't me
End Chorus:

Alone

I sit in this room
Where no one knows me
The nictone stains on my fingers
Remind me I'm alive
The last drink of alcohol
Drowns my tears
No one knows I'm alive

Chorus:
I walk alone
Down this crowded street
Everyone looks away
My only company is my dieing heart beat
No one sees me
I move along among them
While I walk alone
End Chorus


I walk this shattered line
Walking amonst the crowd
Yet I fall behind
This is were I lay
All alone
Day after day
Yet no one knows
That I walk alone

Chorus:
I walk alone
Down this crowded street
Everyone looks away
My only company is my dieing heart beat
No one sees me
I move along them
While I walk alone
End Chorus

Passion

What is passion. Webster defines passion as "a powerful emtion such as love, joy, hatred or anger" I remember coming to this school three years ago and having everyone tell me "what are you studying?" For awhile I either said psychology or exercise science. This year's subject seems to be social work. Through all the muttering and rambling about what my major is I always asked the same question, "What should I study?" The answer was always the most obvious and redundant answer. Yet this answer was always in the form of a question so no one ever really answers the question "What should I study?" They always say "what are you passionate about?" Wow, why didn't I think of that before? Maybe if I knew what I passionate about I wouldn't be asking "What should I study?" but hey, you know everyone got to have something to reply to the question. I've thought about what I was passionate about every year since I was out of college, I always came back to the general stuff, but nothing really exclusive. I'm passionate about people. I like helping people and listening to help solve problems. Yet I was also passionate about working out, and I absolutely love music. Now being in a band has been of the best things to happen to me, but I was told "you're never gonna make it!" I'm sorry people but if I sat here and told you that you were never going to make in something you were passionate about, how would you react? Now I know I seem kind of bitter and angry but I'm not it's just basic respect, sometimes it's nice to hear the nice things even if you don't want to. What's the golden rule mom always told us? "If you don't have something nice to say, then don't say it all!" Good ole' mom always there to keep nice and sweet like sugar even though some of us are as sour and bitter as lemons. Hey we all have our problems. Now am I one to talk about how one should never say something unless nice. Shit no. Hell I speak without thinking and go on my rants and expect people to just take it, well except for the 5 women in my life and four of them belong in my family. The other one bless her heart always seems to have something to say back. It's not a bad thing it's what I like to call and little bit of fire and spunk in a girl. Now true sometimes it can be frustrating but hey who said that all things good in life our easy? Whoever said that should be drug out into the street and shot...is that easy? Hell yeah but it's not neccessiarlly good for you, well it's at least not good for the person getting shot...sorry buddy. I notice I have a habit of asking questions then answering them. Why do I do this? Ha caught you again. Acutally to be honest its the way I think out loud. It's seems if I ask a question and answer then maybe somehow I actually know what I'm talking about. I never really said I knew exactly what I was talking about but I at least try to make it sound good. Where was I? Oh yes, passion. I've found over the years I'm most passionate about the one I love. The person that makes the birds sing or whatever else you see in the movies. Thanks Merry Poppins. The way I look at it, if you love someone completely then they should love you completely, there should be no doubts or really any questions. If you honestly think abou it, if it is true love, then you should be able to get through anything together...and I do mean anything. The reason divorce rates are so high is because all those people aren't truely in love. They are in love yes, but yet they expect something or want something and they found out down the road the person they love wasn't exactly what the wanted but they settled for less. Now every relationship takes time and work. DUH! It won't just happen. Hell, I used to think it would just happen but like I said I don't always know what I'm talking about. Love is a rare thing this day in age. I say if you are love embrace and go with it, you only live once and there is no reason to deny yourself the fruits of life. Robin Williams said it best in Dead Poets Society "Suck the marrow out of life, but don't choke on the bone" Thank you Mrs. Doubtfire...I'm Out!